They love you one day
The next day they love you not
Pulling Petals love
Tag: Mind
Ignored
The worst pain is being ignored
Acknowledge me
Why can’t you think about me
As much as I think about you
Acknowledge me
I’ll do anything for your attention
Why don’t you see that
Acknowledge me
You’re hurting me
I’m hurting me
Acknowledge me
I know you want me
And you know I want you too
Acknowledge me
Happy Thoughts
Have you ever been happy,
Just from the thought of someone?
Just one thought and
BOOM!
Electricity through your veins
Hot coals in your cheeks
Involuntary smile
Just from a thought.
Who would’ve thought
That someone would make you
So happy
I Don’t See the Logic Behind Child Murder
How could someone end a child’s life?
It’s a kid.
They don’t do anything
They can’t hurt you
Knowingly insult you
They’re innocent
Killing them at a young age robs them the chance to even be something bad.
To possibly hurt you
Just look at their faces
So inexperienced
Don’t know the world yet
Shouldn’t be killed
I just don’t see the logic
Maybe it’s better that I don’t
Reasons to Love Yourself
They say for someone to love you
First you must love yourself
It’s paradoxical of a statement
But we all look past it
Maybe we need an excuse to love ourselves
Or give someone a reason to not find someone else
Rot Away into Something Better
Nothing truly lasts.
In the end, all rot away.
Eventually.
I’ll reach that time eventually.
It’s not a sad thing
A happy thing to me.
I truly believe I’ll go where I belong. Whether that’s a good place
Or a bad place
It doesn’t matter to me. It’s where I belong.
Finally I’ll feel like I belong.
A place I’m accepted
Corridors of My Mind #3
I like people.
At least that’s what I tell myself. I just hate the voices. The voices in my head are already enough so adding more I too much. People are so loud and selfish. There’s just so many. So many of them and so little of me. So little like me. I just want more people I can relate to. More people to talk to. More people to understand.
Instead I hide what I am. Afraid of how people would react. You’d fear me. I fear me. The world isn’t ready to know.
I’m not ready for the world to know.
Anxiety
One second I’m completely fine.
Next something happens and my life ends
I can’t breathe
Swallow
Think
Feel
I’m sweating under the cold air
I don’t know what to do I can’t think
They say breathe and I try
I forgot how
I’m suffocating
Drowning in air
My stomach is being folded
Food doesn’t want to be in this situation
I can’t hold onto it
I vomit
I want to cry but I forgot how
The tears stay in my eyes and burn
My eyes are on fire and not because I’m angry
Slowly my body returns to normal
I move on
Kids
People seem to forget that for a time
They were also kids
Made dumb mistakes
Fell in love
Stayed up late
Had hopes and dreams
Some people forget that
They act like kids are so dumb for what they do
Forget that they were once that same
Dumb kid
Necessity
We’re all so busy
Never having time for what we want
Always time for what we “need”
We’ll miss the important events
For the ones
We can live without
So much energy
Into all the wrong things
Handing away our freedom
For “necessity”
But why
What do we gain
Nothing
Absolutely nothing.
Except for
sadness
Regret
Disappointment
Longing
We should do what we feel is best
Not what others say we need
Eli Castor 